and so it goes...

i dont really know where to start. intially i had no ideas of what to write but now i have too many things to say. im hopeless. and i also have to warn you that im lazy so excuse the bad english as i dont feel like proof-reading today :p. currently i feel happy, sad and extremely tired. i know that isnt possible. but im not normal. for today ill just start off with why im feeling sad, emo, depressed...

why am i sad?
because i miss talking to my awesome guy friend. before i had decided to isolate myself from all of my distractions (fb, msn, etc.) to concentrate on my studies i was talking to this friend of mine. to tell you the truth i actually dont know what to call him. our relationship is a bit complex. we've only met once face-to-face which was at a friend's birthday party and we've never really talked in real life. weve been keeping in contact with each other via msn since.

days and months past, and we would just be talking about random things such as the things we do during the day, our studies, things that bother each other and so on. ive never noticed until now that we are growing closer - we know each other so well and have so many similarities that it isnt even funny any more. at times we would touch on topics that the normal girl-guy friends wouldnt talk to each other about - which i think is quite strange. at times there would also be the occasional I LOVE YOU. i am so confused. i hate it. i hate him. he always know what to say to cheer me up. i dont really know what to do. on top of that i still have to think about my studies and the homework that is soon to be over-due (which i didnt do because i was either distracted by or talking to him)

ahaha. hes on and says: HELLO!. lisa is replying... sigh*

i wished weve never met, i wished id never replied, i wished id never fallen for the words he spoke...

:( i hate this. i miss him.

i should start on homework now. cheerios